I wish

Its too late for regret. But yet, how I wish I can turn back time. Is it all fated that I have to go through this? Why didn't I think before I act? Why didn't I heed my own advice? *tears* I want you, I don't want to go through this. If I have another chance, I would not bring you here so selfishly. So selfish. The news that others receive brought them joy and love to theirs. But mine just brought sadness and guilt for life.

Everyday I think about you the moment I wake up and before I sleep. I keep picturing the perfect situation that will not happen. What have I done? I have become this lady I hate.... I am living this life. Forgive me.

Chris Daughtry came by today!

Chris Daughtry came by today! The lot of us were going crazy over him.

Funny sometimes

I kind of gotten over you. It doesn't hurt anymore. Learning to let go took quite awhile for me. But why do you message me funny messages? Especially when you are the one that wanted to leave me. Why ask me out again? And when I say that I am busy, why do you send me a message that indicates that you are sad? Don't you want me to get on with my life? Isn't it what you want? How can you assume that I will make time specially for you now? Funny sometimes...

Luck not running out

My colleague A told me that my luck is running out. You see, I met an asshole today. He was big, old and very unreasonable. Whats worse, I guess he is illiterate and blind. No no. He got perfect senses.... in true fact, he was just being difficult. I was struck by his sarcasm and rudeness. Thank God sent my colleague A to defend me or I would have said something I shouldnt. I was at the verge of asking him to fuck off. Well, I did tell him that I was pissed with him, when he said he was pissed. Bottom line... A saved that moment for me. Very grateful to him.

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Thinking.

to sing

Do you love to sing? Do you love to dance. Music is my baby, sometimes I wish I can play. A tune to keep me going, without music I will not be.

Believe

So after all these one night stands
You've ended up with heart in hand
A child alone
On your own
Retreating
Regretful for the things you're not
And all dreams you haven't got
Without a home
A heart of stone
Lies bleeding

And for all the roads you followed
And for all you did not find
And for all the things you had to leave behind

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
All I ask of you
Believe
Your childhood eyes were so intense
While bartering your innocence
For bits of string
Grown-up wings
You needed

But when you had to add them up
You found that they were not enough
To get you in
Pay for sins repeated

And for all the years you borrowed
And for all the tears you cried
And for all the fears you had to keep inside

I am the way I am the light I am the dark inside the night I hear your
hopes I feel your dreams And in the dark I hear your screams

Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you is
Believe

I never wanted to know
Never wanted to see
I wasted my time
Till time wasted me
Never wanted to go
Always wanted to stay
'Cause the person I am
Are the parts that I play
So I plot and I plan
Hope and I scheme
To the lure of a night
Filled with unfinished dreams
And I'm holding on tight
To a world gone astray
As they charge me for years
I can't pay

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you is
Believe

Believe

Friend S

Met friend S yesterday for dinner. Its been awhile since we last met so I am glad to catch up with things. Let us meet again, when I am stronger.